So I’ve tried a change or two just to play around with themes before. This time I had design in mind for the site and I think I’ve achieved it. I’ve also created a new logo, which you can see right up there. There’s the site version and a version for the comics pages. I’m pretty darned happy with it!
It’s that time of year again. . .
The year was Christmas Eve, 1999. Both my parents were alive and I was stuck in a job I hated working retail. Earlier in my life I’d decided I wanted to be a comic artist and promptly fallen into a long dark depression that wouldn’t lift for years. I was at the end of my rope mentally and suicide was looking mighty good. Austin, my friend these past 25 years, swung by and we went to Waffle House at around 8:00 pm. We talked about how horrible our lives were. Just the kind of mood you want to be in for Christmas. Afterward I came home, got online, and started typing in random “.com’s” to see what existed. Hey, it was the early days of the web. There wasn’t much to do.
I decided to try “thundercats.com” for no good reason. What happened next was a fluke. It never happened again and I’ve never been able to explain it. All I know is that domain took me somewhere completely random and it was the one place I truly needed to see.
It took me to Sluggy Freelance.
Sluggy Freelance, by Pete Abrams, had been running for two years at that point and it was the very first webcomic I’d ever seen or heard of. I went back to the very first strip and I read it all night until about 3 am. I picked back up after the Christmas festivities were done. After finishing a marathon session, I jumped on my bed with a ruler, a pencil, a gel pen, and my sketchbook. I drew a comic that day. The very first one I’d done in my adult life. It starred me, and two of my friends in comic form and would eventually develop into Kota’s World, but that wouldn’t be till April of 2000. But the seed was there. Something had begun inside me and was growing and I would keep it there, safe and protected from the horrible storm raging inside me.
When things finally snapped and a friend tried to kill himself it echoed inside my and that little seed grew. I started drawing the comic again. I kept drawing it for the next five years. I kept drawing again after that and I’m still drawing. A lot of why I draw is to tell a story, but the reason -the REAL reason- I keep drawing is to use it as a weapon. It’s my sword against the darker things inside me. It’s a shield against the weathering winds that blast out of my core. It’s a way to reach out to other people that may feel the way I did fifteen years ago on that horrible Christmas Eve.
Things may be bad. They may be down right horrible. You may feel alone and afraid. Well you’re not alone, and you don’t have to accept the way things are. You can fight. You can live.
Merry Christmas, friends.
Hello and Merry Christmas! I hope everyone has a great holiday this year! This week there won’t be any comic updates. Neither Errant Apprentice nor Mailbox Rocketship and that’s due to holiday festivities, visitors, and general merry making. Starting next week we’re going to have a new schedule for updates. Errant Apprentice will update once a week for a while on Mondays and Mailbox will stay on Wednesdays. The reason being, I’m working on a new project that I’ve wanted to do for years and I have finally started work on it.
I’d been planning on keeping this a secret, but I’ll go ahead and announce it here. I’m working on a four minute long animated short. It’s going to be sort of an opening credit sequence for Mailbox Rocketship set to the song “Human” by The Killers. Despite this time intensive project, I refuse to stop the comics entirely, so we’re just going to a slightly more manageable update schedule. I want to thank you all for your understanding as I pursue a lifelong dream of being an animator.
Again, have a great holiday and I’ll see you all next week.
Hey guys! So there were no updates this week. To be honest, I fell into a funk since I’m still dealing with the loss of my father. I realize that it’s to be expected, but it’s still hard for me to give myself the time I need to cope. I keep thinking I’m doing better and then I have a day where I don’t even want to get out of bed. That’s going to be happening for quite some time. I wish I wasn’t but it is.
I’m going to continue working on Errant Apprentice and Mailbox Rocketship. That hasn’t changed. I just don’t know how frequently it’s going to be. I’ll try and maintain my schedule as best I can but with the holidays coming up and my current mind set, we’ll see. There might be days without updates. There might be a week without an update. There WILL be updates though.
I just wanted to take a minute to thank all of you for reading and being so understanding during all of this. My dad’s illness effected me more than I can ever really understand and losing him so quickly took a lot out of me. You guys have been amazing during all of this and I want you all to know how much I appreciate it.
Oh! There IS an update ready for Monday on Errant Apprentice, so keep an eye out for that!